MY world (continued) Part 2.... (14/08/2009)

So yesterday's blog became a bit too much for me too deal with, But im back, ""You know how life can be, It changes overnight"!
So here comes part 2..........

Afrodisiacs
So I think that a lot of these things may seem pathetic, or stupid but too me they are the things that keep me going & that I live for no matter how fake they can be!
America plays a huge part in my life, I want too move there A.S.A.P., Im always thinking about being there in the future & though this may never happen it's a thought that makes me want to aim high & do well in the future!
Im really looking forward too moving out, No offence to my parent's or anything, I just feel that it's time that I had my own space! I feel more comfortable in my own environment & then I can have people round when I want, go out when I want & do what I want when I want! Seem's like I'm like a Loner, But I really enjoy being on my own sometimes & could quite happily live on my own! I would like to move in with a friend or like 4 of us in a flat or something, but only people that I can trust & won't get all up in my Kool Aid! Because you can live together still leading seperate lives.
I really want to be in the lifestyle where you go to work, earn a good amount of money, come home go out or have a night in by yourself! I don't want a lifestyle that's all work! I just want your average job with a good amount of money so that I can treat myself to things & have enough to go on holiday at least once every 2 years!
I think that after college, Hopefully I'll have been in a job for a long time, Ill be aiming to be out of the house more or less straight away! I just need to be secure in finances & everything else but Im sure everything will work out fine.
I enjoy nights out where you expect it's going to be crap, but you have one of the best times!
I love music concerts as you're just on a high for the whole night!
I love abroad holidays, despite not being on that many I still love the chilled out vibe you get! I do also enjoy UK holidays where it's a peaceful place, but still has a good nightlife. I've just outgrown holidays with my mum, Nanna & grandad. It all just seems to end in tears if we go together :/ I think some people can & some can't & I'm one of those people who can't!
I love to dance, But unlike most people I dance for me not for other people, I don't dance for my parents, I don't dance for an audience, I dance for me. Like if I was going to die in an hour, I would love to be in a dance studio, with proper speakers & music system with my music blasting out & dance till I can't breathe! It's just something I enjoy doing on my own, aswell as with my friends & in class & whatever else!

Future Plans
As I've mentioned above, America would be the Ideal setting for me, Just living life working, partying, Cruising the highways with the top down, Exploring different states, road trips, sunsets, all nighters, endless summer's & the general " Life is a beach" Aura!
I want to have a decent amount of money, NO i don't wish to be rich, But Like mentioned I want to have enough money to do things that I want to do. I want to live somewhere that I can choose, Not think that I can't afford to live there.
Now I say I've got my future hopes & dreams, But I only ever see as far as like 25-30 Like I just can't imagine myself getting any older than that, This show's I'm still very immature coz I just want my life to be the same forever, Like I don't ever see the day when I have too take responsibility for a family & other things. It is a long way away though & Im sure that my view will change in the future!

Life
Now life is one of the most confusuing things I ever think about! In songs, poems, articles & speech you hear life described in general & also people's seperate lives and Its just got so many twists & turn's its beyond belief!
I think more than anything "life is what you make it" Because even when S**t hits the fan, (so to speak) You can still remain positive & keep things happy & upbeat! I do think that you still have to feel upset & depressed at times to get the full life experience, anyone who party's all the time with no upset in there life isnt being true to themselves, While people who are always depressed aren't doing themselves any favours either! You just have too "take life as it comes" cross bridges when you get to them, Try and forget things as quickly as possible, sweep things under the rug, DO have arguments when appropraite, DO apologise when it's needed. Do stand up for what you believe in, however don't force the belief onto other people, & don't protest things that don't need protesting as you will only get hurt, either physically or mentally! I do believe everyone should be able to believe what they want, and do what they want, be themselves and act how they want whenever they want, But that's not how the world works, So at times you just need to swallow your pride & keep the belief inside you without letting other people know! Do be michevious, Do do things you probably will regret but will laugh about some day! Because once the moments gone it's gone! Every single mili second that passes by has gone & will never ever be lived again by anyone! So just keep moving forward & try too make the most of everything!
Your not always right no matter how much you think you are! Everybody makes mistakes! I do believe that in songs, no matter how cheesy or annoying that they do portray very strong messages, But to make it fit into main stream music they add cheesy lyrics & music to stop it getting serious! E.g. Hannah Montannah - Nobody's Perfect, S club 7 - Reach! Both cheesy cheesy songs but the lyrics if wrote down without the music mean alot, I think that's why some ballad's & slow songs are not liked by people because it's too real for them, & it makes people face up too facts & reality!
Learn from other people, Appreciate difference, Individuality is the cause for everything bad & good so embrace it no matter how difficult it may be!
I love quotes that mean a lot just little things that are simple, My Facebook quote section is like overflowing coz there's just some that mean a lot too me here's a few.....

"Love is NOT a maybe thing" - Lauren Conrad

"We only get judged by what we do" - Sugababes

"Everything you are today, is what you want to be, So don't be someone else, when you be the best so easily" - Love Inc.

"I can do it on my own" "The only thing I know is, I wont fall, & I have it all" - PCD

I don't live my life my these quotes but they do mean a lot too me!

I think that you have to be true too yourself in life & I think even though what you find may hurt, you'll truly be happy deep down, despite being upset on the outside!

I think that that's everything about me that I can think of, Despite going on & on, It's now all down, So I can look back, Especially if i ever feel like Im loosing myself!

Yours Truly
"Keep it positive"