Milo,Miles,Meals,Mileoh, @Miloknowsbest! Just Some of the wierd & Wonderful name's I'm Called, or have been called!
So today I'm guna have a different approach! My readers Have been on the increase, So I'm giving you all an insight Into what makes me, ME! Now some of this may be boring to you, some maybe cheesy, but this is how I think, how I feel & how I move from day to day!
Erm I think the easiest Way to do this, Is in subheadings, & then U can pick & choose what you want to read:) so here goes nothing......... **WARNING** This may be a really LONG blog!!
Description
Im 6ft 1In! I'm Mixed race, half jamaican! I think my body's just average, like no muscle but not much fat! That horrible lanky look :/ I have a big nose, which I've learnt to accept & embrace:) At one time I couldn't even look at myself without being close to tears, but you get over it & realise im lucky to have all my normal features! I have one eye smaller than the other which sometimes is more noticable than others! I like my teeth now after having braces for close to 2 years & am comfortable with every part of my body!!!!
Personality
I Used to be very loud & stupid all the time, & that is no exagguration, looking back now I kinda see why people get annoyed with me! But I think recently I have grown up a lot, While still keeping the immature side that I have, I never will be as grown up as other people It's just a trait about that that will never change! I like to think that Im quite friendly & try not too hate on new people, however I tend to make the wrong decision of people on first impressions. But once I get to know people I can see straight through them & that helps me alot to stay out of trouble with people, like I know when I'm gunna cross the line! I wish that everyone would have a personality similar to mine because (not blowing my own horn) But I think that It would help people appreciate & understand people no matter what walk of life, or how different they are! Because at the end of the day individuality makes us what we are :)
Bullying
Hard subject for me too talk about! & this is the first time I've fully adressed it & wrote down all the facts & how it affected me! I think it's about time that I stand up to the fact, that bad things have happened too me & Im not the only one in the world! & I need to adress these things so that I can finally move on & get over them!
OK so from the beginning! I went to a private school, from the age of 8 till 12, & I think that this is why the bullying didn't start at that young age. I think that your very sheltered at private school, & that the real world (so too speak) doesn't really apply to you! By all means we weren't good or anything we probably got up too worse things than normal public school children! But It's like a mini environment & problems from your home life & the "outside" (so too speak) don't pass through the school gates, SO nobody ever had fights or had a bad word to say about anyone! & I don't think that anybody really saw anyone as different no matter what race, size or gender, we went to school to learn and have fun not to bully, intimidate or cuss anyone!
SO Brunts school 2003 not long after starting this is where the bullying began. I am a very "flamboyant" person shall we say! I don't like labels but there's no other word to describe it as "CAMP" I can't stand that word! & I had a really high pitched groany type of voice which I despised! & I always remeber older kids out of no where being like "SPEAK SPEAK SAY THAT AGAIN" & then just laughing hysterically! At first I was like in shock, so I think it was more confusion than anything else, after never having a word said to me I suddenly had older people taking the piss out of me! Erm Racism arose at one point! & I had never even heard of the "N***er" word so I was literallyt just bemused, but that hurt deep! I can't remeber every incident but I know its been literally every day for 3 years none stop! & in year 9 I did find it hard to deal with & it showed at home when I burst out crying infront of my mum for NO reason! & thats when it all came out & she went into schoool! This didn't really help but Im glad she was aware! I still get a few odd remarks up too this day, but I think It just goes over my head! But when I really sit & think about it it does upset me! Im not gunna write in this blog "tears fall as a write about my past" Because I don't want or need sympathy! But yes it is upsetting to think about things, that Ive been through & how people can be so spiteful towards human beings!
I'm Gunna end here for today! Because I think it's a sensible place to end!
Tomorrow I'll add my outlook on life, my future plans, my prozac's & anything else I can think off to add! But I hope that you all understand this blog is not for sympathy,attention or a cry for help! I just think you need to be honest about your life, as you can't change it & it's made you who you are! Never give up hope & always be proud of who you are! It's Not about where u come from, It's about where your going!!! Always remember that! Be true to yourself & never loose who you are!
Yours faithfully
"Let your heart be your guide"
love it milo :)!
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